Afraid of being asked this irl and dropping tmi. But since this is the Internet…
I’m 52 and going through what feels like a 2nd fucking puberty. I’m feeling creative again, but this time with panic attacks, and enough experience to own the Art of Procrastination to a level that matches Gojo’s Limitless. I’m dodging that shit like it’s effortless until the last possible moment and then crush it. So far.
I have so, so much to worry about, I’ve shorted out. My brain is simply in denial so I will probably have a sleep paralysis panic attack again soon.
At least there’s some good stuff too and I’m clinging to that. And my hyperfocusing/fixation on stuff has come in handy, even when using to avoid other things.
Pretty awful if I’m being honest. I’m miserable at my job but having trouble finding anything better and worrying I’m not good enough. All my friends have had kids and settled down and I uninstalled all the dating apps a year ago because all I ever got was ghosted. I feel like I’m stuck here with no way out.
Hey, don’t let your job define you. I feel like I have imposter syndrome every day at my job. But at the end of the day, a job is a job. Do you have any hobbies? Music?
Also, the job market is hard. Try not to let it get you down (as much as you can. I know it’s demoralizing.)
Not great
Horrible and ready to be put out of my misery.
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